Writings

Down a steep and weedy slope, was a place the parents said "do not go!"

A tall wall of shrubs and trees, but if you squeeze...

You can get through the grove.

Where the air is different, with the fresh smell of dew.

And the only sound is the creek and you.

There's rocks, water, and small critters,

So much timber the sun barely shines through.

The dogs bark, the teens laugh,

Long ago in times past,

My best friends we grew up too fast, 

Down under the canopy, the mother's tummy, of the gully.

I am the endurer

My pain and sacrifice comes from love and can't be purer

And no matter what the world throws at me

Every rain drop of pain gets counted like a rosary

And no one's ever chosen me or missed me

Never been anyone's favorite mostly

Been thrown up in the mix

I look like every other dude with a hat

I don't even exist

I said half-jokingly

While choking on my own emotions

Don't worry I will shove them down my throat again and hold them

Because the rain drowns my feelings

But I'd rather flame them up and roast them

Grind them into dust roll them in a blunt and smoke them

The truth is life is a test

How much pain can you endure and still feel blessed

Still feel grateful for all of the rest

Wake up every morning and give the whole world your best

When the rain is all you know...

Unleashed, I am the dog that won't leave

often viewed as a beast, and I will agree.

I am ugly to me.

But my family finds beauty in my loyalty

because I stay by your side, even when told to wait outside

unleashed, I am the dog that won't leave

and if we encounter dangers and foes

I will not leave, I will not go

because family is the only thing that I know

unleashed, wherever you are, that place is my home.

a bird with no sky is not a bird complete

like a bear with no mountain or a fish with no sea

the rat needs its trash, the giraffe needs its view

and a bird without sky, is how I feel without you

Slinking and scurrying, flying their flag

their tail-fluff winks at me, waves and wags

chattering and chirping, raging mad

until I give them their peanuts

then they smile oh so glad.

They nibble and thank me, and hold in both hands

their protein that gives them the energy

to run amongst plants

and chase for days, and run and play

so cute and fluffy

squirrels are so great!

The mountain towers humble, unwavering in zen

it's been this way since, I don't know when

through wind, water, and fire the mountain still stands

as I believe should the morals of men.

Un-moveable inert, a juggernaut, and stoic

awe-inspiring, the perfect fruit for a poet

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my life's wishes

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

a champion without a belt

I miss Barbz today

I really wish he didn't pass away

I wish my mom didn't have to get her head shaved

I wish the cancer would just take me instead

Cause I ain't got nobody at home just an empty bed

I wish I wasn't so poor I wish I had more

I wish I could afford just to go to the store

I wish I had some better food and some better shoes

I'm just a broken man with a broken van and I got nothing to lose

That's why I do what I do I chase dreams

Waking up is the nightmare cause right here

I ain't got a dang thing

How'd it get so bad, how did so much time pass

They say hard times don't last, they say it through a mask

As I laugh but really ain't nothing funny

So much smoke in the air that it's cloudy when it's sunny

So I copped this beat from the homie Profit Money

I'm still trying to flip nothing into something

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

So I keep skating, cause life it goes on

even if the love of your life is gone

you can press pause on this song but you can't press rewind on the time

I'm only lying when I tell you I'm fine, but in my mind I'm just dying

I'm tired of crying tired of losing all my friends

I'm tired of losing all of my ends and all of my hands

But I guess that's just the hand I was dealt

Three 6's of spades and one king

all these emotions felt, but I ain't felt one thing

That's why I stay hidden in my hole

Yeah I miss the old world this one ain't got no soul

It's been sold for a bunch of lies that been told

So now I stay in my fold, I don't kick it with people I don't know

I don't really feel like anybody knows me

I've lived a lot longer than I thought but I'm not home free

My best homie Spade he died last week of liver disease

But every time I saw him we would just drink!

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

Uh, the struggle is real, put your hands up if you can't pay your bills and feel how I feel

Uh, the struggle is real, put your hands up if you feel like I feel

Uh, the struggle is real, put your hands up if you can't pay your bills and feel how I feel

Uh, the struggle is real, put your hands up if you feel like I feel

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

These are my daily struggles, these are my life's wishes

That's why I like to tussle, it's the only time I'm winning

A born fighter, a champion without a belt

An empath with no path so many emotions felt

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my life's wishes

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

These are my daily struggles

a champion without a belt

Man of Stone Lyrics

(Chorus 1):

I am the man of stone, all my friends have died or they left me all alone, there was once a heart here, now it’s gone, I’m just the man of stone.

I am the man of stone, they can’t break me down and take my flesh and bone, I stand strong as a mountain, if I stand alone, I’m just the man of stone.

(Verse 1):

I watched my best friend pass, Matt did, put my hand on his head in a casket, had so many questions I asked him, but he didn’t answer them. I see him in my dreams, like I always did, ever since I was a kid cause me and him we were best friends. And Brazie too he was a crazy dude and mad bold, but the world got mad cold and they both died at like 32. And we all miss them but I understand that this life sucks, and I’ll see em soon enough if I can’t shake all this bad luck.

(Bridge 1): Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye. Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye.

It isn’t getting any easier, it isn’t getting any easier… it’s been a long long life…

(Verse 2): 

Now, some might say I suffered heart break, but I say that’s karma, it doesn’t mean that it’s not trauma, but I don’t need pharma, and my momma, just beat cancer of the third kind, she didn’t deserve any of it, now she’s on borrowed time. Sometimes I think the world’s too much and I can’t breathe, I get so angry I don’t eat so lonely I don’t sleep. And it hurts that so many people purposefully hurt me, so I dig my grave and decorate it beautifully worthy.

Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye. Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye.

I am the man of stone, all my friends have died or they left me all alone, there was once a heart here, now it’s gone, I’m just the man of stone.

 “Voices” by G-Life - off the album "My Rise" available HERE
 (I gotta go right now)
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)
 I can't stand still and I can't stand pills, I smoke an ounce a day for reals now I can't pay bills add that shit to the list of shit I want to kill I'd pull that trigger for real but it'd give me no thrill I'd feel nill I'm too fucking broke to buy an ill grill but I have the smarts and skills to have life insurance and a will quill cause all I need is a meal and some steel wheels but I ain't afraid to Holyfield like the real deal cause I be fighting all day and night in my nightmares and I'll be coming to your house if the fight's there my might's rare I might need eyewear cause I see no fear hand me that lighter lets cheef right here
crack that beer cause I like to drown my emotions in poison and liquor it makes me sicker and sicker and quicker and quicker they see in my eyes the pain but the passion don't flicker, and I should be dead but momma didn't raise no quitter
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)
 Can't stop pacing my minds racing these dudes that are hating man I can't even blame them I'm raging I'm hating myself I don't know why I want to die I'd commit suicide right now if it weren't for family that survive (life is hell) some things I've done I can't take back I'm sorry I forgive you I can't say that It's a wrap it's been ruined I laid traps I said screw it I'm trying to make things right but it'd take like a million years to do it I blew it I don't even know who it is in my reflection I want to forget and press reset but I cant because it ruined my whole fucking life I want punishment I want the knife I want it twice I want to make things right so I fight every night   and I hate saying I hate myself but it's true and I hate fucking up all the time but I do that's why I drink and do drugs and I screw there's no excuse that's why I lose
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed I'm so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)