Writings

Down a steep and weedy slope, was a place the parents said "do not go!"

A tall wall of shrubs and trees, but if you squeeze...

You can get through the grove.

Where the air is different, with the fresh smell of dew.

And the only sound is the creek and you.

There's rocks, water, and small critters,

So much timber the sun barely shines through.

The dogs bark, the teens laugh,

Long ago in times past,

My best friends we grew up too fast, 

Down under the canopy, the mother's tummy, of the gully.

Man of Stone Lyrics

(Chorus 1):

I am the man of stone, all my friends have died or they left me all alone, there was once a heart here, now it’s gone, I’m just the man of stone.

I am the man of stone, they can’t break me down and take my flesh and bone, I stand strong as a mountain, if I stand alone, I’m just the man of stone.

(Verse 1):

I watched my best friend pass, Matt did, put my hand on his head in a casket, had so many questions I asked him, but he didn’t answer them. I see him in my dreams, like I always did, ever since I was a kid cause me and him we were best friends. And Brazie too he was a crazy dude and mad bold, but the world got mad cold and they both died at like 32. And we all miss them but I understand that this life sucks, and I’ll see em soon enough if I can’t shake all this bad luck.

(Bridge 1): Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye. Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye.

It isn’t getting any easier, it isn’t getting any easier… it’s been a long long life…

(Verse 2): 

Now, some might say I suffered heart break, but I say that’s karma, it doesn’t mean that it’s not trauma, but I don’t need pharma, and my momma, just beat cancer of the third kind, she didn’t deserve any of it, now she’s on borrowed time. Sometimes I think the world’s too much and I can’t breathe, I get so angry I don’t eat so lonely I don’t sleep. And it hurts that so many people purposefully hurt me, so I dig my grave and decorate it beautifully worthy.

Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye. Aye aye aye aye, aye aye aye aye.

I am the man of stone, all my friends have died or they left me all alone, there was once a heart here, now it’s gone, I’m just the man of stone.

 “Voices” by G-Life - off the album "My Rise" available HERE
 (I gotta go right now)
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)
 I can't stand still and I can't stand pills, I smoke an ounce a day for reals now I can't pay bills add that shit to the list of shit I want to kill I'd pull that trigger for real but it'd give me no thrill I'd feel nill I'm too fucking broke to buy an ill grill but I have the smarts and skills to have life insurance and a will quill cause all I need is a meal and some steel wheels but I ain't afraid to Holyfield like the real deal cause I be fighting all day and night in my nightmares and I'll be coming to your house if the fight's there my might's rare I might need eyewear cause I see no fear hand me that lighter lets cheef right here
crack that beer cause I like to drown my emotions in poison and liquor it makes me sicker and sicker and quicker and quicker they see in my eyes the pain but the passion don't flicker, and I should be dead but momma didn't raise no quitter
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)
 Can't stop pacing my minds racing these dudes that are hating man I can't even blame them I'm raging I'm hating myself I don't know why I want to die I'd commit suicide right now if it weren't for family that survive (life is hell) some things I've done I can't take back I'm sorry I forgive you I can't say that It's a wrap it's been ruined I laid traps I said screw it I'm trying to make things right but it'd take like a million years to do it I blew it I don't even know who it is in my reflection I want to forget and press reset but I cant because it ruined my whole fucking life I want punishment I want the knife I want it twice I want to make things right so I fight every night   and I hate saying I hate myself but it's true and I hate fucking up all the time but I do that's why I drink and do drugs and I screw there's no excuse that's why I lose
 I got so many feelings bottled up inside some nights I cry, some nights I want to die (I gotta go right now) Cause my anxiety's hiding inside of me why and every word I'm hearing is lies (I gotta go right now) I don't even know which way to go I can't stop moving I'm losing abusing confusion (I gotta go right now) I'm fucking depressed I'm so out of it I don't want to get out bed I'm tossing and turning these voices inside of my head (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now) (voices inside of my head) (I gotta go right now)